Look guys, I know my journals (such as this one) in the Loki group haven't been very kind or professional lately. But you guys just don't understand.

None of you know how it feels to have every journal ignored, every contests ignored, everything I do ignored. I might have ADD or ADHD or something, but I need you guys to see them! Whether you read journals or not, you all in this group need to, k?

Just recently I've been put on medication for my thyroid, my great grandmother died, my boyfriend cheated on me, and two very beloved pets died. Now, tell me how I'm supposed to get over all of this. I can't! So if I'm acting like an evil person and being nasty, I'm sorry. Because I am not really like this. I'm going through tons of stuff right now that it's just not fair to be ignored, and have this really cool contests idea (at least in my opinion) that no one likes and thinks it's ok not to tell me and not to participate. If you don't like the idea, TELL ME! Don't just not do it and hope someone else does. They won't, trust me. So please, tell me if I was being rude. I know I was. But you people can't be afraid of me.

I got kicked off the group and put as the contributor rank. (To be honest, I don't even know what that means). I was kicked off co-founders because of my attitude. And I'm really sorry. But you people just give me such a hard time! Be in my shoes, see how it feels, and don't complain about it. That would suck, so of course I need to journal about it. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry. But to all of you who agreed to have me kicked off of my rank, delete my deviations and my journals, I'm not going to yell at you. As much as I'd like to, I won't. I made people leave the group. Tell them I'm sorry.

Without me, this group would be a mess. If there was no one like me here, everything would be a mess. If this got out of control, those nice friends/co-founders of mine would be nice and politely tell you to stop, and it gets ever more out of hand. You need me to be assertive, otherwise this place be not be good. I'm the one who keeps people in line. I write the journals, I edit posts, and I move things to the correct folders. I MAKE THIS PLACE BE WHAT IT NEEDS TO BE.